how one becomes was-band

i have an estranged husband.
that word makes me laugh. its so springer. so maury.
estranged.

yet, i would not call him estranged.
i would not call him husband.

i call him was-band, when i am being kind.
usually i go for bitch-ass-crybaby-sissy

here's the short of it.
mac sleeps with heidi.
heidi and mac lie to me.
heidi takes my job so she can keep me out of office and keep him.
i move out thinking i am just getting a divorce.
heidi plays my friend.
mac plays me.
mac gets caught.
he wants to try and make it work.
heidi says he made it up and i suck for believing him.
heidi's dumb ass husband blames me. poor guy.
i try.
i counsel.
i church.
i try.
but no go.
i get an attorney.
i get on with life.
he gets bitter.
i get a boyfriend-when old boyfriend becomes new again !
i get a new attorney.
we try to be reasonable.
he files ignorant motions.
we file rational.
he files stupid.
he whines he needs spousal support.
he cries i have a boyfriend.

HEY ASSHOLE you had a fat fat fat and i mean just FAT ass girlfriend for a year. on the side. in motels. in cars. in my old house. you racked up debt and phone bills talking to her. you put your household in debt. you lost our house.

THIS IS A CONSEQUENCE OF YOUR ACTIONS.

now. was-band-mac is a Bitch-ass cry baby.
and heidi ihde is still just fat.

but i will still fight for my life to go on.....

estranged my ass.