get shorty

when you date the boys i date, you have been called a few things
ma
kid
sugar
and my least favorite shorty
i hate shorty
but today it is get to the list shorty

i am sorting through my lists......
listing out my life.
sorting out my life.
what do i want to deal with

today is mostly my eating issues
i cannot eat certain things
i cannot eat regularly
i have gone back to controlling food because of the out of control nature of life
i have done this for years
i see it coming on again and it scares me because last time it consumed me
i can't eat this because.....
i won't eat that because......

the bottom line is, i will not be fat.
being fat is not the reason i was cheated on.
i was cheated on because he was a poor excuse for a husband and she was a horrible friend.
i was cheated on because i did not pay attention to the life that was in front of me, i was trying to advance my career and did not take into consideration that my husband was trying to advance his pckr into a fat girl....so even if i was fat--fat was not the reason.
fat does not lead to cheating no matter what anyone says.

my eating issues are control issues.
the relate to money. the relate to life. they relate to kids. the issues are mine to own.